Friday, December 31, 2004
60GB photo iPod siapa yg mau simpen lagu lebih dr 20.000 ? kapan denger nya ? bisa simpen film ? nonton nya di layar se kecil ini ?tssssssssssss .....trend ... yeah sucks
Thursday, December 30, 2004
Best wishes 2005
sebelum merayakan tahun baru .... gw turut berduka cita buat korban Tsunami di Thailand, Aceh, dan sekitar nya buat yg mempunyai relasi/saudara yg sedang berlibur atau berdomisili di daerah tersebut ( Thailand ) bisa klik di sini untuk mencari tahu bagaimana keadaan person tsb
Buat para korban yg telah meninggal kita tidak bisa berbuat apa apa . tetapi bantuan dr anda berupa donasi benar benar berarti buat mereka yg sedang tertimpa musibah itu .
Ironis sekali di Belanda ( menurut berita hari ini ) .... penjualan Fireworks ( petasan ) lebih menguntungkan daripada jumlah donasi yg sudah terkumpul .
buset dah bahasa gw hahaha kaga ngarti gw arti nya paan tuh yg gw tulis di atas !
sekolah di Kelurahan doang dulu nya , maka nya ga bisa berbahasa indonesia yg baik dan benar
donasi donasi ... buat org yg tinggal di Belanda ke giro 555
Selamat merayakan Tahun Baru 2005
gw ga ngerayain th ini th depan sama aja gw di rumah pake piyama dan tidur spt hari hari biasa nya , atau pyama party ?
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
hotel & restaurant fuck
since 1902
KalkstraSe 127
51377 Leverkussen ......
nice rooms , nice locations but still fuck .......
since 1902
KalkstraSe 127
51377 Leverkussen ......
nice rooms , nice locations but still fuck .......
Ragu alla Bolognese
Preparation - Medium
Prep: 30 min Cook: 3-5 hrs
Serves 4 - 6
Spaghetti Bolognese - Bolognese sauce usually features at least two different kinds of meat, the meat is usually minced, not ground, and milk or cream in some measure is added at some point. This is our adaption of the Bolognese recipe. For a quick meat sauce with ground beef, see Simple Meat Sauce
3 Tb olive oil
3 TB butter
1 large onion, finely chopped
2 stalks celery finely chopped
2 carrots finely chopped (size of a wooden match head)
2 bay leaves
1/2 tsp dry oregano (more to taste) 1 tsp fresh
1/4 cup red wine (optional)
1 14 oz and 1 28 oz cans tomatoes (36 oz all together)
6 oz tomato sauce
1 lbs meat, good quality beef, minced
1/4 lb ground pork or Italian style pork sausage broken up in small pieces
salt
chili pepper or pepperoncino, small piece (more to taste)
IN an earthenware pot or the heaviest, deepest pot you have, heat the oil/butter. Add the chopped onion and saute briefly over medium heat until just translucent. Add the celery, carrot and optional hot pepper and cook gently until softened, about 2 - 4 minutes.
ADD the minced beef and the pork sausage, breaking it up with a fork. Add salt to taste, stir, and cook only until the meat has lost its raw, red color. Add the wine, turn the heat up to medium high, and cook, stirring occasionally, until all the wine has evaporated.
ADD the tomatoes, the oregano and the bay leaves and stir thoroughly. When the tomatoes have started to bubble, turn the heat down until the sauce cooks at the gentlest simmer, just an occasional bubble. Cook, uncovered, for a minimum of 3 to 4 hours, stirring occasionally. Taste and check for salt. (If you cannot keep an eye on the sauce for such a long stretch, you can turn off the heat and resume cooking it later on. But do finish cooking it in one day.)
USING FRESH TOMATOES: Plunge in hot water, peel and de seed as much as possible, simmer in a little water, covered, until soft, then process briefly to a coarse sauce consistency before adding.
Selamat Makan
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
Update update .. comment nya gw ilangin .. lagi males baca comment soal nya !
tapi ada tagboard nya sekrg kalo ada yg mau tulis ya tulis aja biar ga kosong getuh atau gw tulis sendiri ntar habis gw mandi .
oo iya lupa gw , lupa kasih tau ke orang2 yg photo nya gw taruh di atas tuh .. gw ga nanya ke mereka2
jadi photo2 di atas itu gw pake tanpa permission yg punya muka ! tapi kliatan nya kaga ada yg ngamuk lah tuh baek2 semua kok mau ngamuk ya situ .. kaga gw pikirin banget dot com deh auwwwwww !
tapi ada tagboard nya sekrg kalo ada yg mau tulis ya tulis aja biar ga kosong getuh atau gw tulis sendiri ntar habis gw mandi .
oo iya lupa gw , lupa kasih tau ke orang2 yg photo nya gw taruh di atas tuh .. gw ga nanya ke mereka2
jadi photo2 di atas itu gw pake tanpa permission yg punya muka ! tapi kliatan nya kaga ada yg ngamuk lah tuh baek2 semua kok mau ngamuk ya situ .. kaga gw pikirin banget dot com deh auwwwwww !
Bingung Mau taruh music apa ??????????
taruh berita TV isi nya bencana alam , perang di mana mana , orag di potong ,perang antar agama , suku , tsss capek denger nya ... dah fucked up ini dunia .
tadi pagi gw sempet mikir ini tanda tanda akhir zaman kali ye ???
yg Create dunia udah capek ! dah terlupakan , yg sekrg berkuasa cuman duit duit dan duit ....
siapa sih yg ga butuh duit ? punya duit emang enak bisa mempermudah semua nya
tapi kalo kalian pada ngerasa punya duit bantu tuh org org yg sedang kena bencana rekening nya lupa gw , bisa cari di internet sites , kalo males nyari bisa di kirim ke gw juga ! hihihihi
taruh berita TV isi nya bencana alam , perang di mana mana , orag di potong ,perang antar agama , suku , tsss capek denger nya ... dah fucked up ini dunia .
tadi pagi gw sempet mikir ini tanda tanda akhir zaman kali ye ???
yg Create dunia udah capek ! dah terlupakan , yg sekrg berkuasa cuman duit duit dan duit ....
siapa sih yg ga butuh duit ? punya duit emang enak bisa mempermudah semua nya
tapi kalo kalian pada ngerasa punya duit bantu tuh org org yg sedang kena bencana rekening nya lupa gw , bisa cari di internet sites , kalo males nyari bisa di kirim ke gw juga ! hihihihi
Monday, December 27, 2004
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tau ga ?? makanan yg gw suka kalo malam2 gini ... Roti tawar ( yg putih atau yg coklat ) , trus gw siram susu coklat dingin !
hihi ga penting banget dah posting nya ... * kapan sih gw posting yg penting * ga sudi lah .....
hihi ga penting banget dah posting nya ... * kapan sih gw posting yg penting * ga sudi lah .....
Sunday, December 26, 2004
i'm in luv ... with this gal
hihihihi dengerin yg lagu electric storm trus si J yg maen piano dan dia yg nyanyi ck ck ck
kesian dah gw hidup di dunia fantasi gini huahuahuahua .. soalnya kehidupan gw yg bener hari ini menyedihkan sekali dah , ke restaurant 2 x di tolak , dasar resto busuk ! krn yg 1 fully booked dan yg satu nya lagi kalo makan mesti pake custom ,tssssss pake custom kalo habis makan lari kan sama aja ye bener nya ? rugi looooooooooooo dodol ! mendingan gw kayak gembel gini tapi mau bayar man ( kalo inget )
...later folks
hihihihi dengerin yg lagu electric storm trus si J yg maen piano dan dia yg nyanyi ck ck ck
kesian dah gw hidup di dunia fantasi gini huahuahuahua .. soalnya kehidupan gw yg bener hari ini menyedihkan sekali dah , ke restaurant 2 x di tolak , dasar resto busuk ! krn yg 1 fully booked dan yg satu nya lagi kalo makan mesti pake custom ,tssssss pake custom kalo habis makan lari kan sama aja ye bener nya ? rugi looooooooooooo dodol ! mendingan gw kayak gembel gini tapi mau bayar man ( kalo inget )
...later folks
Thursday, December 23, 2004
Op 1e kerstdag, zaterdag 25 December, slaan Extrema Music, EC Records en Hotkitchen de handen ineen elkaar tijdens een nieuw concept genaamd "Knock Out". Tijdens deze avond wordt de de 013 omgebouwd tot één grote boksarena, compleet met boksring, ronde-missen en bijpassende visuals van zowel Joducus (Slides in motion) als Nederlands beste Vj team "Photonic". Als de avond een succes is wordt dit concept waarschijnlijk gecontinueerd in een nog nader aantal te noemen locaties binnen het Nederlande clubcirquit
.... cool ! too many dj's in the ring !
.... cool ! too many dj's in the ring !
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
Een lekker bericht om de dag mee te beginnen. De bruto lonen blijven gelijk maar netto houdt je er minder aan over. Als ik me goed herinner, was dit vorig jaar en dat jaar daarvoor ook al het geval: een trend?
BTW: de beurs begint vandaag ook niet positief....wel een leuke dag voor de daytraders!
BTW: de beurs begint vandaag ook niet positief....wel een leuke dag voor de daytraders!
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
Paul Rivers (Sean Penn ( i like him ) !, in his second ace acting job this year after `Mystic River') is slowly dying of heart disease. Aided by his loving girlfriend (Charlotte Gainsbourg, `My Wife Is An Actress'), Paul is on the list for a heart transplant, but he is losing the race against time. Cristina Peck (Naomi Watts, brilliant at mourning disintegration) is a mother to two little girls, and a wife to an adoring husband. When a tragic accident takes her family away in one fell swoop, Cristina falls into an abyss of despair that she cannot shake. Jack Jordan (Benicio Del Toro, in the strongest performance of his life) is a repeat felon trying to change his life by handing himself over to Jesus and honest work. When he's categorically rejected by both, Jack's faith is tested in the worst ways, and he finds old habits are impossible to escape. Three separate characters, three separate worlds. Yet they are all bound inextricably to each other by a simple twist of fate.
The press materials list `21 Grams' as a story of hope, but this dark tale barely lets the light in for one deep breathing moment. This is the follow-up feature from director Alejandro Gonzalez Inarritu, whose last picture, `Amores Perros,' impressed critics and audiences with its interweaving storytelling and pungent portrait of modern day Mexico. `21 Grams' takes the action to American shores, but the filmmaker's fondness for a disarranged narrative device still remains. Thankfully, so does his gift with actors.
This story is not told with any type of linear notion or intent. Inarritu chooses a twitchy, skipping framework in which to bring forth these tales of anguish. Right from the beginning (if one could call it that), the audience in plunged into the story, like a child with deflated water-wings pushed into the deep end of a pool. There is little to no understanding of who these people are or what is being shown. There are flashes from the climax of the picture shown in the first 5 minutes and crucial character backstory blinks by before the audience even knows its meaning. All of this visual information takes about a full film reel before the audience has a chance to adjust to the rhythms of the picture, and unscramble its inhabitants. I'm still having trouble sorting out whether this is an example of narrative necessity and deliberate ambiguity, or just a filmmaker trying to cover the creases of his storytelling.
Whatever the case may be for Inarritu's careful (and familiar) aesthetic decisions, `21 Grams' somehow breaks free from the chains of the collage-like narrative and assumes its place as a mighty dramatic creation. Returning to the tragic overtones of destiny and fated happenstance that he investigated in `Amores Perros,' Inarritu's keen eye serves `Grams' exceedingly well, digging up a delicate, pain-soaked story out of very little. After two films, Inarritu's sole question seems to be: how do people, faced with extraordinarily tragic circumstances, manage to get out of bed every morning? Through love, faith, and pure rage, the story glides effortlessly in detailing each separate character, and bringing them all back to the main plot for thematic connection and emotional resolve. Of course, the filmmaker has a startling cast as his tools to paint on his canvas, but this is a film that is more directed than performed.
The editing and narrative device comes back to haunt Inarritu in the end, since the film cannot seem to find a good place to conclude. This two hour picture works its way slowly into the brain and the heart, even when the story jumps manage to cool the passions proposed by the characters. Inarritu doesn't do anybody any favors by keeping the climax as erratic as the opening reel, and there is the twinge of betrayal felt in the cockles of the heart when considering that the film marginally flatlines in the end rather than making good on a promise to wrap things a little more tightly. `21 Grams' is a potent production that will have you at the edge of your seat, but it lacks the finishing moves of a more experienced director
drama drama drama bulllllls ...
The press materials list `21 Grams' as a story of hope, but this dark tale barely lets the light in for one deep breathing moment. This is the follow-up feature from director Alejandro Gonzalez Inarritu, whose last picture, `Amores Perros,' impressed critics and audiences with its interweaving storytelling and pungent portrait of modern day Mexico. `21 Grams' takes the action to American shores, but the filmmaker's fondness for a disarranged narrative device still remains. Thankfully, so does his gift with actors.
This story is not told with any type of linear notion or intent. Inarritu chooses a twitchy, skipping framework in which to bring forth these tales of anguish. Right from the beginning (if one could call it that), the audience in plunged into the story, like a child with deflated water-wings pushed into the deep end of a pool. There is little to no understanding of who these people are or what is being shown. There are flashes from the climax of the picture shown in the first 5 minutes and crucial character backstory blinks by before the audience even knows its meaning. All of this visual information takes about a full film reel before the audience has a chance to adjust to the rhythms of the picture, and unscramble its inhabitants. I'm still having trouble sorting out whether this is an example of narrative necessity and deliberate ambiguity, or just a filmmaker trying to cover the creases of his storytelling.
Whatever the case may be for Inarritu's careful (and familiar) aesthetic decisions, `21 Grams' somehow breaks free from the chains of the collage-like narrative and assumes its place as a mighty dramatic creation. Returning to the tragic overtones of destiny and fated happenstance that he investigated in `Amores Perros,' Inarritu's keen eye serves `Grams' exceedingly well, digging up a delicate, pain-soaked story out of very little. After two films, Inarritu's sole question seems to be: how do people, faced with extraordinarily tragic circumstances, manage to get out of bed every morning? Through love, faith, and pure rage, the story glides effortlessly in detailing each separate character, and bringing them all back to the main plot for thematic connection and emotional resolve. Of course, the filmmaker has a startling cast as his tools to paint on his canvas, but this is a film that is more directed than performed.
The editing and narrative device comes back to haunt Inarritu in the end, since the film cannot seem to find a good place to conclude. This two hour picture works its way slowly into the brain and the heart, even when the story jumps manage to cool the passions proposed by the characters. Inarritu doesn't do anybody any favors by keeping the climax as erratic as the opening reel, and there is the twinge of betrayal felt in the cockles of the heart when considering that the film marginally flatlines in the end rather than making good on a promise to wrap things a little more tightly. `21 Grams' is a potent production that will have you at the edge of your seat, but it lacks the finishing moves of a more experienced director
drama drama drama bulllllls ...
Fiscus speurt naar internethandel
De Belastingdienst gaat een zelflerende zoekmachine inzetten om zwartwerkers en lieden te vinden die illegale goederen aanbieden. Denk aan thuiswerkende huisvrouwen die bijklussen en bedrijven die spullen verkopen zonder dat de fiscus er weet van heeft. De zoekmachine heet 'Xenon', zo schrijft De Telegraaf. De zoekmachine is waarschijnlijk gemaakt door het Duitse Xlaunch. In Duitsland heet de machine geen Xenon maar Xspider en zoekt vooral naar eBay-handelaren. Wij vermoeden echter dat de zoekmachine is uitgebreid met een rss-lezer die Marktplaats afspeurt: zo maakt de KLPD namelijk al sinds jaar en dag gebruik van speciale RSS-feeds van de spullenaanbieder. Iemand met meer technische informatie over dit toversysteem?
zooo beetje voorzichtig dief !!!
De Belastingdienst gaat een zelflerende zoekmachine inzetten om zwartwerkers en lieden te vinden die illegale goederen aanbieden. Denk aan thuiswerkende huisvrouwen die bijklussen en bedrijven die spullen verkopen zonder dat de fiscus er weet van heeft. De zoekmachine heet 'Xenon', zo schrijft De Telegraaf. De zoekmachine is waarschijnlijk gemaakt door het Duitse Xlaunch. In Duitsland heet de machine geen Xenon maar Xspider en zoekt vooral naar eBay-handelaren. Wij vermoeden echter dat de zoekmachine is uitgebreid met een rss-lezer die Marktplaats afspeurt: zo maakt de KLPD namelijk al sinds jaar en dag gebruik van speciale RSS-feeds van de spullenaanbieder. Iemand met meer technische informatie over dit toversysteem?
zooo beetje voorzichtig dief !!!
kerja , balik , masak , makan , pergi lageeee ...
heheh balik buka pc , trus inget dulu ama si Neal neh .. kebetulan dia lagi nulis comment , jadi inget waktu dia dulu stage di salah satu maskapai penerbangan US .
habis kerja selalu ketemu dia , liat in cam , kecentilan lo Nerd !
tapi bagus bagus tuh hasil jepretan cam yg pake t shirt merah itu ! photo andalan buat jual diri ! * kaga bakal marah kan elu ye Nerd* hahahaa dah biasa kuping elo ma omongan gw !
sekrg si Nerd ini dah nikah , dah kerja , lagi liburan ye Nerd jarang banget ketemu paling e-mail itu juga pendek2 ( drpd kaga ye nerd ) hihihi .. baek tapi lu Nerd ..
6-7 th an kali yeee kite dah kenal ?? pernah ribut kaga nerd ??? hihi kaga ye ? rasa nya blom pernah dah .. ga ada guna nye ribut ma gw juga !haha buset lama man .. lo tau keren2 nya gw dolo nerd hiahihihihhi sekrg dah tinggal ampas nye gini ! rot toch op man ! kut hihihihihihuhehuheuheue
later Nerd have fun liburan ... jagain laki lu ... sebelom gw gebet ntar !
heheh balik buka pc , trus inget dulu ama si Neal neh .. kebetulan dia lagi nulis comment , jadi inget waktu dia dulu stage di salah satu maskapai penerbangan US .
habis kerja selalu ketemu dia , liat in cam , kecentilan lo Nerd !
tapi bagus bagus tuh hasil jepretan cam yg pake t shirt merah itu ! photo andalan buat jual diri ! * kaga bakal marah kan elu ye Nerd* hahahaa dah biasa kuping elo ma omongan gw !
sekrg si Nerd ini dah nikah , dah kerja , lagi liburan ye Nerd jarang banget ketemu paling e-mail itu juga pendek2 ( drpd kaga ye nerd ) hihihi .. baek tapi lu Nerd ..
6-7 th an kali yeee kite dah kenal ?? pernah ribut kaga nerd ??? hihi kaga ye ? rasa nya blom pernah dah .. ga ada guna nye ribut ma gw juga !haha buset lama man .. lo tau keren2 nya gw dolo nerd hiahihihihhi sekrg dah tinggal ampas nye gini ! rot toch op man ! kut hihihihihihuhehuheuheue
later Nerd have fun liburan ... jagain laki lu ... sebelom gw gebet ntar !
Monday, December 20, 2004
Suka banget gw lagu nya Good charlotte yg just wanna live ...
Anthem nya si J th 2005 yeah ......
Don't really care about the things that they say
Don't really care about what happens to me
Just wanna live ......
yo freaks ... met natal en tahun baru ya .. buat semua yg gw kenal , yg pernah gw bikin kesel , yg suka ma gw , yg benci gw , dan juga buat yg gw benci , yg gw ga suka , selamat juga dah ....
SELAMAT NATAL & TAHUN BARU 2005
Anthem nya si J th 2005 yeah ......
Don't really care about the things that they say
Don't really care about what happens to me
Just wanna live ......
yo freaks ... met natal en tahun baru ya .. buat semua yg gw kenal , yg pernah gw bikin kesel , yg suka ma gw , yg benci gw , dan juga buat yg gw benci , yg gw ga suka , selamat juga dah ....
SELAMAT NATAL & TAHUN BARU 2005
Sunday, December 19, 2004
gw barusan melek .... udah tidur sih .... tapi terus inget cucian masih ada di mesin cuci hooooaaaaa .... takut bau gw .. maka nya mesti bangun dan pindah2 in
habis gitu buka msn ketemu cmidottk ngobrol2 bentar dia nya teler . trus tidur, gw nya juga ngantuk , tapi ya ga bisa tidur
trus ketemu di MSN dgn si MRN2483
tau tau .. ngobrol bentar dia panggil nyet bla bla bla ... trus manggil manggil J ... J .... J kayak org bingung getuh hihihihi
ga tau nya ada cowo nya hahahahha ... * ngakak asli* trus ga suka dgn comment gw !
cowo nya ngamuk2 ke gw nanya umur gw berapa hihihihi lebih mature dr gw kali yaaa , terlalu mature jadi comment di blog pun di anggep semua nyata atau mencerminkan kepribadian kita ! coba anda yg marah2 dgn saya ada di belanda atau di europa sini ... mungkin saya akan samperin anda.
ribut di internet , dll nya itu ga ada guna nya heheh ... nyiksa diri elo sendiri ... masa gw nulis di blog cewe nya kok pacar nya yg marah ... kata nya ga respek bla bla bla .... pftttttt ... sopan sekali rupa nya , berdarah bangsawan kah anda ( yg ngomel2 dgn saya ) ...berpendidikan tinggikah anda ???? ? yg kalo baca tulisan titit atau hal sejenis itu bikin mata pedih ????
pernahkah anda membaca artikel ttg EQ IQ dan SQ ? hihihi Emotional Intelegence ? dan intelejensi lain lain nya yg ada di sifat anda ? dan gimana cara mengatasi nya ???
kalo org bisa marah cuman krn gw tulis titit .... trus dia pikir gw ga respek dgn cewe nya ? hihihi ga ngerti gw cara pikir yg begitu ??? apa hubungan nya titit ama respek ? welcome to my world Mathilda .... spt yg elo bilang ke gw tadi !
cuman ama lu gw bisa ngobrol nyantai M buat golongan umur 20 an hehehe
dah gw tidur ..... dah kering baju gw
habis gitu buka msn ketemu cmidottk ngobrol2 bentar dia nya teler . trus tidur, gw nya juga ngantuk , tapi ya ga bisa tidur
trus ketemu di MSN dgn si MRN2483
tau tau .. ngobrol bentar dia panggil nyet bla bla bla ... trus manggil manggil J ... J .... J kayak org bingung getuh hihihihi
ga tau nya ada cowo nya hahahahha ... * ngakak asli* trus ga suka dgn comment gw !
cowo nya ngamuk2 ke gw nanya umur gw berapa hihihihi lebih mature dr gw kali yaaa , terlalu mature jadi comment di blog pun di anggep semua nyata atau mencerminkan kepribadian kita ! coba anda yg marah2 dgn saya ada di belanda atau di europa sini ... mungkin saya akan samperin anda.
ribut di internet , dll nya itu ga ada guna nya heheh ... nyiksa diri elo sendiri ... masa gw nulis di blog cewe nya kok pacar nya yg marah ... kata nya ga respek bla bla bla .... pftttttt ... sopan sekali rupa nya , berdarah bangsawan kah anda ( yg ngomel2 dgn saya ) ...berpendidikan tinggikah anda ???? ? yg kalo baca tulisan titit atau hal sejenis itu bikin mata pedih ????
pernahkah anda membaca artikel ttg EQ IQ dan SQ ? hihihi Emotional Intelegence ? dan intelejensi lain lain nya yg ada di sifat anda ? dan gimana cara mengatasi nya ???
kalo org bisa marah cuman krn gw tulis titit .... trus dia pikir gw ga respek dgn cewe nya ? hihihi ga ngerti gw cara pikir yg begitu ??? apa hubungan nya titit ama respek ? welcome to my world Mathilda .... spt yg elo bilang ke gw tadi !
cuman ama lu gw bisa ngobrol nyantai M buat golongan umur 20 an hehehe
dah gw tidur ..... dah kering baju gw
Saturday, December 18, 2004
Friday, December 17, 2004
I'd like to hang you from a tree
Then make you watch what you don't wanna see
Find out what's really in your mind
Well are you that twisted and unkind
Little man with big ambition
Arrogant by self admission
I just wish the world could find a way to make you shut the fuck up
buat pasukan anti cowo bangsat ! join to the club ! hihihihi
Then make you watch what you don't wanna see
Find out what's really in your mind
Well are you that twisted and unkind
Little man with big ambition
Arrogant by self admission
I just wish the world could find a way to make you shut the fuck up
buat pasukan anti cowo bangsat ! join to the club ! hihihihi
Mathilda ! ... BT tuh artinya paan sih ??? Bau Tai yeeee ?????butuh toket ? butuh titit ???????
Buntut Tikus ? Blom Tjutji hihihi maksaaaa banget pake ejaan lama .. jayussssssssssssss loe J ! tau kata Jayus dari si Math neh .. see yaaaa gw mau tidur ...*mikir neh ga tidur ... mikirin singkatan BT * Broken tart kali yeeee Big tits yeeeeeeeeeeah , itu kaleeeeeeee
hihihi
later .....
Buntut Tikus ? Blom Tjutji hihihi maksaaaa banget pake ejaan lama .. jayussssssssssssss loe J ! tau kata Jayus dari si Math neh .. see yaaaa gw mau tidur ...*mikir neh ga tidur ... mikirin singkatan BT * Broken tart kali yeeee Big tits yeeeeeeeeeeah , itu kaleeeeeeee
hihihi
later .....
posting gw susah di ngertiin .. bahasa indo gw susah di ngertiin tepat nya .. kata semua org , dulu lebih parah .. ga kenal titik dan koma ... hehehe
toh gw nulis buat gw sendiri ... kebetulan aja ada yg baca ,
si M ma cukup ngerti gw .. kaga bakal sakit ati ma gw dia ! terlalu gede rasa "sayang" nya ke gw hahahahahahaha ... taiiiiiiiiii
ehm baca artikel dr internet tadi soal .. di ilangin nya sekolah menengah kejuruan di Belanda
jadi ya inti nya tuh jurusan di hapus dan di ganti spt di indo SD, SMP , SMA , UNI spt di neg2 lain juga getu ..
di NL emang dulu nya ada sekolah kejuruan tehnik, tapi yg menengah doang semua jurusan kalo ga salah ada kok ...
bener nya buat paan sih sekolah ????kenapa org2 di atas ( pemerintahan ) musingin dgn yg beginian ? ga ada masalah laen yg lebih di utamakan kah ???
gw terlalu autistic kali buat perubahan .. gw ga suka perubahan .. gw suka apa yg ada dan di perbaiki aja ..
buat paan sih pendidikan itu ? * berat booo topik nya palagi buat gw yg ga pernah mengenyam masa pendidikan "
pendidikan( sekolah ya maksud gw ) : di optis gw cuman buat "meningkatkan cara berpikir aja" ga lebih dari itu
cuman ya banyak banget opini laen2 dr orang yg berlainan yg lebih tinggi pendidikan nya dr gw misal nya
gw kasih contoh !
TITIT
misal nya
*si A tuh cuman tamat sekolah dasar .... kalo denger kata titit mikirnya langsung ke yg sex , sperma , blow job ....dll nya ( ada juga yg jaim ( istilah internet ) jaga image getuw boooo -- kaga gaul loe kalo ga ngerti ! kalo denger kata itu langsung treak ih jorokkkkkkkk tssss "jorok tuh kalo ada tai di keyboard eloe itu jorok !"
( tapi 70 prosen otak cowo sih sex aja bener nya )
trus
*si B yg pernah ngerasain SMP , mikir nya ooh itu penis bahasa sopan nya ati ati loh kalo ke pelacur loe bisa kena penyakit kalo ga pake kondom .. ( ngerti ada efek samping nya )
* si C yg pernah di bangku SMA dia ngerti bahasa inggris nya dan bahasa latin nya karena pernah dapet pelajaran biologi yg mendalam dan kebetulan dia anak IPA
dia ngerti letak letak syaraf dan ada beberapa urat penting dan pembuluh darah yg bisa memompa cepat ada di situ ada di bola ( ah mau nulis peler aja kok susah gw )
*si D yg sekolah di luar negeri ntah di mana ! si D bisa ngerti semua nya sampai kegunaan nya dia bisa menganalisa itu kata TITIT dari kegunaan nya ,efek samping nya apa kalo asal pake ini "barang", susunan biologis nya , dll nya
dr crita di atas itu gw bilang pendidikan itu bikin cara elo berpikir beda ,intinya itu aja ga lebih , dan cara menangani masalah pun laen kalo orang cara berpikir nya beda ,ya otomatis ,
point gw .. sekolah kejuruan itu kan banyak latihan .. itu kan ketrampilan yg di utamakan mereka banyak kerja praktek . nah kalo dasar nya ga trampil mau di paksa sekolah 100 th di sekolah ketrampilan ya tetep aja ga trampil , bukan nya itu sekolah kejuruan mesti nya dah di hapus 200 th lalu man ! itu cuman buat xtra mesti nya bukan buat jadi andalan / utama . yg penting cara berpikir dulu , kalo lo bisa nge guna in apa yg lu dapet dr Tuhan .. yaitu otak ... gunakan lah ,
gimana cara guna in nya? ya sekolah sana ... itu modal paling bagus buat buka pintu gerbang kehidupan .
bukan duit , bukan material laen nya , selama sekolah elu dapet gimana mesti cari hasil dari permasalahan ( baca "soal") itu kan secara ga sadar elo di ajar melatih kreativitas otak elo ... dan mendapat nilai A+ tambah dah motivasi buat belajar ... jangan pernah mikir sekolah trus lulus buat nyari kerja .. ( jadi kata laen nya elo butuh paper nya aja ) itu juga goblok nama nye
krn yg paling penting ya tetep ada yg nempel di otak elo sendiri kualitas otak elo pengetahuan yg nempel di otak elu .. yg akan lu bawa mati ... getuuuu
kenapa kalo lo ambil master program ga ada isi nya ? kok isi nya cuman "case2" yg mesti pecahkan ? gw sendiri ga pernah sih sekolah ini hihihi sok tau aje gw
karena ya itu elu di latih bermasyarakat ( secara ga sadar ) , elu di latih masuk ke "dunia" laen selain kehidupan sekolah
di luar pendidikan sekolah juga ada baek nya kalo elu ngerasa in "dunia" laen , misal nya kerja praktek kalo bisa secepat mungkin buat mulai langsung kontak dgn masyarakat , ga kalah pentingnya pendidikan di luar sekolah , dr kerja apapun pasti bisa ambil hal positif nya .
ada contoh neh gw ...
* si W di Mich.US dia lulusan tehniek IR gede neh bukan ir ... sejak kuliah dia udah bekerja udah bermasyarakat ... biarpun di kerjaan cara ngobrol temen2 kerja ga se level dgn anda ... tapi ya itu ... nama nya masyarakat mau ga mau elu harus jadi salah satu bagian nya
*si M student psychologi yg sejak muda juga udah bermasyarakat dan sekolah dgn nilai AAAAAA terussssssssssssssssss ....
kedua cewe ini orgasme kali kalo ngeliat hurup "A+"
ada lagi contoh laen
*si L ( di JKT sekrg lulusan FR ) org nya cuek banget ga pernah mikirin sekolah ga pernah belajar boro boro nilai ... ijazah aja ga di ambil
tapi nilai nya ya lumayan lumayan ...dan dia lebih sering ber "masyarakat" dan selalu di trima oleh sekeliling nya ....
L ... walmart yg punya siape ya ? hihih
respek gw dgn mereka2 ini yg masih muda muda tapi dah kenal dgn yg nama nya "hidup"
bukan kayak pemerintahan belanda yg isi nya gonta ganti hukum
tapi tetep aja masyarakat nya terlalu santai karena tanpa kerja pun mereka akan mendapatkan 800 euro dari sosial ! bisakah mereka hidup dgn jumlah segitu ?tentu bisa ... karena rumah pun mereka juga mendapatkan subsidi , anak dapet subsidi
tapi ya begitulah masyarakat yg terlalu manja .... selalu ingin lebih , tidak bertrima kasih dan berusaha lage ....
dah ah dah panjang .... voor Netherlands goverment .... U sucks ... hard werken Lul ... ! niet alleen maar nieuw wet invoeren , scholiering afschafen ! bullshit
anyway .. gw ga masuk kategory org yg gw tulis di atas ... yg soal TITIT ... hihi Gw soalnya kalo ada kata Titit gw mikir nya terus pingin bikin Dildo ... trus gw jual !
ada yg mau beli ???
later
jadi ya inti nya tuh jurusan di hapus dan di ganti spt di indo SD, SMP , SMA , UNI spt di neg2 lain juga getu ..
di NL emang dulu nya ada sekolah kejuruan tehnik, tapi yg menengah doang semua jurusan kalo ga salah ada kok ...
bener nya buat paan sih sekolah ????kenapa org2 di atas ( pemerintahan ) musingin dgn yg beginian ? ga ada masalah laen yg lebih di utamakan kah ???
gw terlalu autistic kali buat perubahan .. gw ga suka perubahan .. gw suka apa yg ada dan di perbaiki aja ..
buat paan sih pendidikan itu ? * berat booo topik nya palagi buat gw yg ga pernah mengenyam masa pendidikan "
pendidikan( sekolah ya maksud gw ) : di optis gw cuman buat "meningkatkan cara berpikir aja" ga lebih dari itu
cuman ya banyak banget opini laen2 dr orang yg berlainan yg lebih tinggi pendidikan nya dr gw misal nya
gw kasih contoh !
TITIT
misal nya
*si A tuh cuman tamat sekolah dasar .... kalo denger kata titit mikirnya langsung ke yg sex , sperma , blow job ....dll nya ( ada juga yg jaim ( istilah internet ) jaga image getuw boooo -- kaga gaul loe kalo ga ngerti ! kalo denger kata itu langsung treak ih jorokkkkkkkk tssss "jorok tuh kalo ada tai di keyboard eloe itu jorok !"
( tapi 70 prosen otak cowo sih sex aja bener nya )
trus
*si B yg pernah ngerasain SMP , mikir nya ooh itu penis bahasa sopan nya ati ati loh kalo ke pelacur loe bisa kena penyakit kalo ga pake kondom .. ( ngerti ada efek samping nya )
* si C yg pernah di bangku SMA dia ngerti bahasa inggris nya dan bahasa latin nya karena pernah dapet pelajaran biologi yg mendalam dan kebetulan dia anak IPA
dia ngerti letak letak syaraf dan ada beberapa urat penting dan pembuluh darah yg bisa memompa cepat ada di situ ada di bola ( ah mau nulis peler aja kok susah gw )
*si D yg sekolah di luar negeri ntah di mana ! si D bisa ngerti semua nya sampai kegunaan nya dia bisa menganalisa itu kata TITIT dari kegunaan nya ,efek samping nya apa kalo asal pake ini "barang", susunan biologis nya , dll nya
dr crita di atas itu gw bilang pendidikan itu bikin cara elo berpikir beda ,intinya itu aja ga lebih , dan cara menangani masalah pun laen kalo orang cara berpikir nya beda ,ya otomatis ,
point gw .. sekolah kejuruan itu kan banyak latihan .. itu kan ketrampilan yg di utamakan mereka banyak kerja praktek . nah kalo dasar nya ga trampil mau di paksa sekolah 100 th di sekolah ketrampilan ya tetep aja ga trampil , bukan nya itu sekolah kejuruan mesti nya dah di hapus 200 th lalu man ! itu cuman buat xtra mesti nya bukan buat jadi andalan / utama . yg penting cara berpikir dulu , kalo lo bisa nge guna in apa yg lu dapet dr Tuhan .. yaitu otak ... gunakan lah ,
gimana cara guna in nya? ya sekolah sana ... itu modal paling bagus buat buka pintu gerbang kehidupan .
bukan duit , bukan material laen nya , selama sekolah elu dapet gimana mesti cari hasil dari permasalahan ( baca "soal") itu kan secara ga sadar elo di ajar melatih kreativitas otak elo ... dan mendapat nilai A+ tambah dah motivasi buat belajar ... jangan pernah mikir sekolah trus lulus buat nyari kerja .. ( jadi kata laen nya elo butuh paper nya aja ) itu juga goblok nama nye
krn yg paling penting ya tetep ada yg nempel di otak elo sendiri kualitas otak elo pengetahuan yg nempel di otak elu .. yg akan lu bawa mati ... getuuuu
kenapa kalo lo ambil master program ga ada isi nya ? kok isi nya cuman "case2" yg mesti pecahkan ? gw sendiri ga pernah sih sekolah ini hihihi sok tau aje gw
karena ya itu elu di latih bermasyarakat ( secara ga sadar ) , elu di latih masuk ke "dunia" laen selain kehidupan sekolah
di luar pendidikan sekolah juga ada baek nya kalo elu ngerasa in "dunia" laen , misal nya kerja praktek kalo bisa secepat mungkin buat mulai langsung kontak dgn masyarakat , ga kalah pentingnya pendidikan di luar sekolah , dr kerja apapun pasti bisa ambil hal positif nya .
ada contoh neh gw ...
* si W di Mich.US dia lulusan tehniek IR gede neh bukan ir ... sejak kuliah dia udah bekerja udah bermasyarakat ... biarpun di kerjaan cara ngobrol temen2 kerja ga se level dgn anda ... tapi ya itu ... nama nya masyarakat mau ga mau elu harus jadi salah satu bagian nya
*si M student psychologi yg sejak muda juga udah bermasyarakat dan sekolah dgn nilai AAAAAA terussssssssssssssssss ....
kedua cewe ini orgasme kali kalo ngeliat hurup "A+"
ada lagi contoh laen
*si L ( di JKT sekrg lulusan FR ) org nya cuek banget ga pernah mikirin sekolah ga pernah belajar boro boro nilai ... ijazah aja ga di ambil
tapi nilai nya ya lumayan lumayan ...dan dia lebih sering ber "masyarakat" dan selalu di trima oleh sekeliling nya ....
L ... walmart yg punya siape ya ? hihih
respek gw dgn mereka2 ini yg masih muda muda tapi dah kenal dgn yg nama nya "hidup"
bukan kayak pemerintahan belanda yg isi nya gonta ganti hukum
tapi tetep aja masyarakat nya terlalu santai karena tanpa kerja pun mereka akan mendapatkan 800 euro dari sosial ! bisakah mereka hidup dgn jumlah segitu ?tentu bisa ... karena rumah pun mereka juga mendapatkan subsidi , anak dapet subsidi
tapi ya begitulah masyarakat yg terlalu manja .... selalu ingin lebih , tidak bertrima kasih dan berusaha lage ....
dah ah dah panjang .... voor Netherlands goverment .... U sucks ... hard werken Lul ... ! niet alleen maar nieuw wet invoeren , scholiering afschafen ! bullshit
anyway .. gw ga masuk kategory org yg gw tulis di atas ... yg soal TITIT ... hihi Gw soalnya kalo ada kata Titit gw mikir nya terus pingin bikin Dildo ... trus gw jual !
ada yg mau beli ???
later
Thursday, December 16, 2004
Enak nye perjalanan dan bawa 4000 mp3 di saku !
tapi lagu yg gw denger cuman 2 aja hihihi eh 3 deng , Tori Amos - Sorty fairytale , dan Staind - its been Awhile , Roxette - Queen of Rain
trus ya sampai , ada yg jemput ( biasa sih celebs ) ada aja yg jemput !
hahaa kliatan banget kalo bukan liburan neh jadi nya ! iye iyeee gw kerja !
anywei ... gitu gitu aja kok ga seru monoton !
jam 20.00 malem .. bengong .. ( dengerin musik lage ) , capek hihi ngapain aja sih kok capek ! mo tau aja luh .... ( habis di booked Drew Barrymore gw )
eh eh bener nya gw tuh males nulis tentang diri gw sendiri di blog ginian , tapi ya tentang apa lagi ya topik nya ? ga ada yg menarik sih selain hidup gw di dunia ini yeee hawwwww here we goooo tha ego tripper !
hehehe tai dah
surf blog dapet nya ini BLOG pre - wedding & kinda stuff ...
emang excited sekali ya org kalo mau nikah getu ...dari proposal married juga di tulis di situ ... keren keren
gw ma mau nya di proposed man ... males ngajakin nikah ( kluar duit( bayar listrik aja gw kurang tiap bulan gimana mo nikah ) , ribet , janji muluk2 susah di tepatin pake bible pula janji nya ) beratttttttttttttttttttttttttttt , blom tanggung jawab nya ... ngasih makan doang ga cukup , mesti kasih kehangatan ( duile bahasa gw ) * boleh di artikan begini * bisa di bakar hidup2 tuh biar anget *
tapi ya normal nya itu manusia nikah ya ? paan sih " normal" ( ga usah di bahas ttg "normal" ) bisa lu temuin di sini ttg bahasan kata "normal" click ( cmi83dotTK) psikiater online gw
Adam & Hawa juga ga pernah nikah tinggal bareng .."it`s about companionship Eva " kata Adam dulu begitu ( pas ngegombalin si Eva ) dan si Eva nya jawab Yesssssssssss Adam yessssss ....Let s do it !
dan mereka pun tinggal bersama dan mempunya keturunan yg banyak sekali ..
Belom ada rasa "cemburu" kali ya waktu itu .. ga ada kompetitor nya getu ... cuman ber dua di dunia ini
yg ada cuman rasa "bahagia" tentram dan damai .. ga kayak jaman sekrg yg isi nya lies ,betrayed, jealousy , hate ,broken heart , all that negatives thingy , u name it !
later folks !
J
tapi lagu yg gw denger cuman 2 aja hihihi eh 3 deng , Tori Amos - Sorty fairytale , dan Staind - its been Awhile , Roxette - Queen of Rain
trus ya sampai , ada yg jemput ( biasa sih celebs ) ada aja yg jemput !
hahaa kliatan banget kalo bukan liburan neh jadi nya ! iye iyeee gw kerja !
anywei ... gitu gitu aja kok ga seru monoton !
jam 20.00 malem .. bengong .. ( dengerin musik lage ) , capek hihi ngapain aja sih kok capek ! mo tau aja luh .... ( habis di booked Drew Barrymore gw )
eh eh bener nya gw tuh males nulis tentang diri gw sendiri di blog ginian , tapi ya tentang apa lagi ya topik nya ? ga ada yg menarik sih selain hidup gw di dunia ini yeee hawwwww here we goooo tha ego tripper !
hehehe tai dah
surf blog dapet nya ini BLOG pre - wedding & kinda stuff ...
emang excited sekali ya org kalo mau nikah getu ...dari proposal married juga di tulis di situ ... keren keren
gw ma mau nya di proposed man ... males ngajakin nikah ( kluar duit( bayar listrik aja gw kurang tiap bulan gimana mo nikah ) , ribet , janji muluk2 susah di tepatin pake bible pula janji nya ) beratttttttttttttttttttttttttttt , blom tanggung jawab nya ... ngasih makan doang ga cukup , mesti kasih kehangatan ( duile bahasa gw ) * boleh di artikan begini * bisa di bakar hidup2 tuh biar anget *
tapi ya normal nya itu manusia nikah ya ? paan sih " normal" ( ga usah di bahas ttg "normal" ) bisa lu temuin di sini ttg bahasan kata "normal" click ( cmi83dotTK) psikiater online gw
Adam & Hawa juga ga pernah nikah tinggal bareng .."it`s about companionship Eva " kata Adam dulu begitu ( pas ngegombalin si Eva ) dan si Eva nya jawab Yesssssssssss Adam yessssss ....Let s do it !
dan mereka pun tinggal bersama dan mempunya keturunan yg banyak sekali ..
Belom ada rasa "cemburu" kali ya waktu itu .. ga ada kompetitor nya getu ... cuman ber dua di dunia ini
yg ada cuman rasa "bahagia" tentram dan damai .. ga kayak jaman sekrg yg isi nya lies ,betrayed, jealousy , hate ,broken heart , all that negatives thingy , u name it !
later folks !
J
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
laterrrr
Here I stand alone
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go away
In my head I keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change
Well I tried But I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind
What if
I had never let you go
Would you be the man
................................................................................................................
c ya i-net junkies , get a life !
J mau jalan jalan dulu .....
God Bless y`all
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go away
In my head I keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change
Well I tried But I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind
What if
I had never let you go
Would you be the man
................................................................................................................
c ya i-net junkies , get a life !
J mau jalan jalan dulu .....
God Bless y`all
mood iseng ( jail ) , kumat !
malam malam mo tidur ga bisa bisa .. iseng surf liat liat blogs org2 banyak kenalan gw dr blog yg dari US pada ke indo , ketemuan , liburan , enaaaak nyeeee ..
trus tulis shoutbox di sini tumben dia ga posting ... pingin gw cela aja kalo post yg serius2 melulu
trus liat ke Blog ini salah satu temen nya si CMI83dottk
yg lagi di tinggal atau ninggal pacar dah ga tau gw , ga gw pikirin juga .. isi nya sedih2 mulu setaun tak terlupakan lah .. bla bla bla .. gw juga paling susah tuh ngelupain ( kalo ngelupain utang ma cepet bisa )
man moves on !!!!!!!!!!! ah rasa nya gw bahagia banget , ternyata masih banyak org yg lebih parah dari gw sampai segitu nya, padahal cuman di tinggal laki yg cuma baru pacaran doang
gw emang di tinggal siapa seeeee ?? cuman elo M yg tau hahahhahaha yg jelas bukan elo suckaaaa!*dendam gw soalnya ama elo* hehehe ! eh si Neal juga tau deng Neal bikin blog gih hahahaa blog elu yg dulu paan Neal url nya lupa gw ? caffeineaddict ? tssss tau dah ...
later para kunyuk2 internet ... gw mao ke Swiss ! snowboarding ! sape tau ketemu Winona Ryder mo gw pacarin !
malam malam mo tidur ga bisa bisa .. iseng surf liat liat blogs org2 banyak kenalan gw dr blog yg dari US pada ke indo , ketemuan , liburan , enaaaak nyeeee ..
trus tulis shoutbox di sini tumben dia ga posting ... pingin gw cela aja kalo post yg serius2 melulu
trus liat ke Blog ini salah satu temen nya si CMI83dottk
yg lagi di tinggal atau ninggal pacar dah ga tau gw , ga gw pikirin juga .. isi nya sedih2 mulu setaun tak terlupakan lah .. bla bla bla .. gw juga paling susah tuh ngelupain ( kalo ngelupain utang ma cepet bisa )
man moves on !!!!!!!!!!! ah rasa nya gw bahagia banget , ternyata masih banyak org yg lebih parah dari gw sampai segitu nya, padahal cuman di tinggal laki yg cuma baru pacaran doang
gw emang di tinggal siapa seeeee ?? cuman elo M yg tau hahahhahaha yg jelas bukan elo suckaaaa!*dendam gw soalnya ama elo* hehehe ! eh si Neal juga tau deng Neal bikin blog gih hahahaa blog elu yg dulu paan Neal url nya lupa gw ? caffeineaddict ? tssss tau dah ...
later para kunyuk2 internet ... gw mao ke Swiss ! snowboarding ! sape tau ketemu Winona Ryder mo gw pacarin !
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
hari ke 3 besok makan spaghetti bolognesse gw ! gara gara masak banyak ! ga tau nya yg makan ya cuman gw sendiri .. mau di buang sayang ,
dah ah makan lagi jam 1 malam neh ... enak kali ye habis makan kenyang trus tidur ,
coba kalo punya pasangan hihi pasti pasangan nya bawel : "hush sana jauhan dikit tidur nye mulut loe bau bawang bombay dan saos tomat"
kalo single mo makan di kasur kek !di Toilet kek , kaga ade yg CREWET !
dah ah makan lagi jam 1 malam neh ... enak kali ye habis makan kenyang trus tidur ,
coba kalo punya pasangan hihi pasti pasangan nya bawel : "hush sana jauhan dikit tidur nye mulut loe bau bawang bombay dan saos tomat"
kalo single mo makan di kasur kek !di Toilet kek , kaga ade yg CREWET !
bueeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekssss muntah muntah ....
dimana mana surfing ( blogs ) di internet isi nya CINTA CINTA CINTA , love this , love that ,
enakan juga sendirian ( single ) bebas man .. mo pipis sambil sikat gigi telanjang di dapur juga ga ada yg bawel
( weew multitask sekali yeee , sikat gigi di dapur ( sambil masak atau cuci piring ) dan sambil pipis )) hihihi keren2
coba lu punya partner pasti dah di cerewetin tuh ...
gw aja cerewet , kalo partner gw kayak gitu , apalagi kalo soal makanan yg ga di abisin wih bisa bawel banget gw ... tau gitu gw kasih racun kalo di buang atau ga di abisin !
Cinta , love .... perasaan ginian di piara tsssss ogah banget gw yg lalu ya udah habis the end ! mo happy mau kaga ga , perlu di pikirin lagi .. jalan hidup masih panjang
liat neh gw ! hidup isi nya di tinggal2 orang mulu ( emang nasib ) hihih .. tapi ya mesti kuat lah ngadepin ,
pinginnya sih gw juga bunuh diri .. tapi ya kalo langsung mati .. kalo bunuh diri trus ga mati kan malah sakit , kalo emang blom "dipanggil" , mau bunuh diri juga ga akan mati .
accepted , nikmatin ,sesakit apapun ... ntar setelah ngelewatin ginian bakalan tambah kuat !
horeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee si J bawel !
dimana mana surfing ( blogs ) di internet isi nya CINTA CINTA CINTA , love this , love that ,
enakan juga sendirian ( single ) bebas man .. mo pipis sambil sikat gigi telanjang di dapur juga ga ada yg bawel
( weew multitask sekali yeee , sikat gigi di dapur ( sambil masak atau cuci piring ) dan sambil pipis )) hihihi keren2
coba lu punya partner pasti dah di cerewetin tuh ...
gw aja cerewet , kalo partner gw kayak gitu , apalagi kalo soal makanan yg ga di abisin wih bisa bawel banget gw ... tau gitu gw kasih racun kalo di buang atau ga di abisin !
Cinta , love .... perasaan ginian di piara tsssss ogah banget gw yg lalu ya udah habis the end ! mo happy mau kaga ga , perlu di pikirin lagi .. jalan hidup masih panjang
liat neh gw ! hidup isi nya di tinggal2 orang mulu ( emang nasib ) hihih .. tapi ya mesti kuat lah ngadepin ,
pinginnya sih gw juga bunuh diri .. tapi ya kalo langsung mati .. kalo bunuh diri trus ga mati kan malah sakit , kalo emang blom "dipanggil" , mau bunuh diri juga ga akan mati .
accepted , nikmatin ,sesakit apapun ... ntar setelah ngelewatin ginian bakalan tambah kuat !
horeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee si J bawel !
waaazaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap
kenapa gw depresi terus posting nya ? kenapa yg sedih2 mulu posting nya ?
*padahal gw nulis nya sambil ngakak dan ngacungin jari tengah neh *
gw lagi nikmatin aja sakit nya di tinggal org , yg dah biasa hidup bareng dgn gw
yg kalo gw masak gw mikirin dia ... * hey honey * , yg kalo gw makan gw mikirin dia , yg kalo tidur gw temenin dia , nonton tv barengan , nonton dvd bareng , kemana mana selalu gandeng tangan , nyetir pun gw pegang2 dagu nya ....
tau tau pergiiiii , gitu aja ... ilang wesssss ... kayak angin ...
tapi kalo gw gini terus ya , bisa gila gw nya ... ya ga pembaca ? masih punya hatikah gw ? ternyata punya . masih punya perasaan kah gw , hati ma perasaan paan sih beda nya ? ga tau gw
lahir sendiri , gede sendiri , tua sendiri , mati juga sendiri man .. JALANIN AJA semua nya ... capek mikirin kangen , capek mikirin keilangan
tapi gw sekrg banyak kegiatan yg positif ( tau dah buat gw sih positif ga tau org laen liat nya gimana )
ga perlu di ceritain kegiatan gw , mau di bilang pelarian ya mungkin juga pelarian , tapi ya ga papa asal positif !
dah ... gw mo tidur ... dah 4 hari ga tidur !
kenapa gw depresi terus posting nya ? kenapa yg sedih2 mulu posting nya ?
*padahal gw nulis nya sambil ngakak dan ngacungin jari tengah neh *
gw lagi nikmatin aja sakit nya di tinggal org , yg dah biasa hidup bareng dgn gw
yg kalo gw masak gw mikirin dia ... * hey honey * , yg kalo gw makan gw mikirin dia , yg kalo tidur gw temenin dia , nonton tv barengan , nonton dvd bareng , kemana mana selalu gandeng tangan , nyetir pun gw pegang2 dagu nya ....
tau tau pergiiiii , gitu aja ... ilang wesssss ... kayak angin ...
tapi kalo gw gini terus ya , bisa gila gw nya ... ya ga pembaca ? masih punya hatikah gw ? ternyata punya . masih punya perasaan kah gw , hati ma perasaan paan sih beda nya ? ga tau gw
lahir sendiri , gede sendiri , tua sendiri , mati juga sendiri man .. JALANIN AJA semua nya ... capek mikirin kangen , capek mikirin keilangan
tapi gw sekrg banyak kegiatan yg positif ( tau dah buat gw sih positif ga tau org laen liat nya gimana )
ga perlu di ceritain kegiatan gw , mau di bilang pelarian ya mungkin juga pelarian , tapi ya ga papa asal positif !
dah ... gw mo tidur ... dah 4 hari ga tidur !
Sunday, December 12, 2004
So little joy, so little joy
It's complicated
So little time, so little time
Be acclimated
So little hope, so little hope
And I'm prayin' now with love
So little time the pace has changed
But I'm still waiting
A thousand years of timeless days
Somnambulating
I'm stumbling wounded in the dark
But I'm praying again for love
Love love...Prayin for.....
Love love love
Simply being loved
listen to this Heaumeaux ( read . HOMO ) ... so kewl :D CLICK .. awwwwww
It's complicated
So little time, so little time
Be acclimated
So little hope, so little hope
And I'm prayin' now with love
So little time the pace has changed
But I'm still waiting
A thousand years of timeless days
Somnambulating
I'm stumbling wounded in the dark
But I'm praying again for love
Love love...Prayin for.....
Love love love
Simply being loved
listen to this Heaumeaux ( read . HOMO ) ... so kewl :D CLICK .. awwwwww
Thursday, December 09, 2004
-- Surat Terbuka-
Posting pake bhs indonesia ah ! ...
hmm tentang apa ye enak nya ... oo special person & temen2 yg akhir akhir ini ( ada ) kontak gw lagi ( msn atau e-mail atau tehnologi laen nya ) hehe ga punya temen gw bener nya mereka mereka ini semua special ! spesial sinting nye
buat si L yg di jkt ( dah hampir 2 minggu di jkt ) masih sit up 100x no sehari ?! berat badan dah nambah ?ugh betah ? luluran terossssss ya huni .. biar ntar ketemu Teddy dah alus kulit nya ? Bibi & teddy baek baek semua ... ememememem huni kapan ke Marseille ? atau paris atau Nederland lageeeee
buat si W yg di ... eh di mana lo ! lupa gw ! DC ye ? inget nya Atlanta :D hihihi en speculas yee conq !
tau dah ... lupa wherever u are ... thanks conq ! sibuk mulu ya elo ... gw baek baek aje .. , fulltime housewife, full time ( blow) job , full time student ( mau seberapa panjang sih title elo ntar ) , gimana bagi waktu nye ye ??? yg ginian aje ga bisa stress ! masa gw yg sendirian stress ye conq ( dulu maka nya kirim si chester ke gw ) hahaha gilaaa dah lo * lagi inget telphone di dengerin "chester"*
si M yg ada di Toronto cewe yg kayak Liv tyler ini hihihihihi! nih si kunyuk satu juga isi nya "pacaran" mulu sekrg .. suara gw aja dah lupa dia !( dendam pokoknya gw ) ! tapi ga papa lah ... biasa cewe !kalo lagi suka ma sms 6585323265 X sehari giliran dah eneg tsss boro boro sms ! e-mail aja males balesin ... gituuuu tuuuuuu ( cewe ma bangsat yee M ) huueeuheueu
buat si P di J town ! Fcuk ( French Connection UK) singkatan nya baru tau dua minggu lalu di kasih tau si L neh , ga gaul dah gw ! ! nih kalo kirim sms isi nya Ayat2 bible kayak gw dah mo mati aje ! conq dari Israel bawa paan buat gw ! eh ga bisa bhs indo deng ya elu lupa gw bahasa hmm paan sih race elo hehe muka midlle east banget dah kayak bintang pilm india loeeee !! tinggal di perth , canada , sekrg di jkt ! tssssss body beyonce ... muka benyamin loeeee becanda conq ga lagi pms kan ye elo
si D bu Dosen fashion .. musim paan th depan neh mesti gimana style gw ??? hueeksss
wey benconq ! kapan punya anak loe ! buruan ! keburu kering tuh rahim ntar di tunda2 mulu .... tapi ga papa deng suami elo lebih muda getuh ! dasar pedofil loe Din !
si Y screw him ... find another man ! gw bikinin pesta pernikahan dah kalo loe nemu cowo baru , ntar kalo gw lagi menang lotere
C di LA , Cell ! kapan anak ke 3 nya lahir ? produktif banget sih eloe ! salam buat Keke
O di Bdg indonesia .... Bu dosen yg berambut a la dragon balls .. kapan tuh buku terbit nye ? dah lulus uji kok ... tuh cover nya si L ajeeee hahaha kan lagi di indo ! cocok dia buat cover !
P di NY si Ratu dangdut yg kalo dandan dari kaos kaki sampai kutang mesti pake merk .... huehueheuhe kayak di bayar aje luh ama merk !
kapan ke UK lage luh th depan bulan paan ? kalo nelpon rada malam ga papa pat! jgn pagi ! .. taeee dah lagi clubbing jam 2 malem nelpon bikin empet aje loe ! th depan gw banyak pergi Pat ....paling ketemu bentar aja ..
Selamat Natal & tahun baru ye buat kalian semua ... W met lebaran dah buat th depan ! hehehe
daaaaghhh
kaga usah pada comment yak kalo baca ini postingan ! gw delete in semua kalo comment yg tidak enak di liat oleh mata gw ! hihihihi
Posting pake bhs indonesia ah ! ...
hmm tentang apa ye enak nya ... oo special person & temen2 yg akhir akhir ini ( ada ) kontak gw lagi ( msn atau e-mail atau tehnologi laen nya ) hehe ga punya temen gw bener nya mereka mereka ini semua special ! spesial sinting nye
buat si L yg di jkt ( dah hampir 2 minggu di jkt ) masih sit up 100x no sehari ?! berat badan dah nambah ?ugh betah ? luluran terossssss ya huni .. biar ntar ketemu Teddy dah alus kulit nya ? Bibi & teddy baek baek semua ... ememememem huni kapan ke Marseille ? atau paris atau Nederland lageeeee
buat si W yg di ... eh di mana lo ! lupa gw ! DC ye ? inget nya Atlanta :D hihihi en speculas yee conq !
tau dah ... lupa wherever u are ... thanks conq ! sibuk mulu ya elo ... gw baek baek aje .. , fulltime housewife, full time ( blow) job , full time student ( mau seberapa panjang sih title elo ntar ) , gimana bagi waktu nye ye ??? yg ginian aje ga bisa stress ! masa gw yg sendirian stress ye conq ( dulu maka nya kirim si chester ke gw ) hahaha gilaaa dah lo * lagi inget telphone di dengerin "chester"*
si M yg ada di Toronto cewe yg kayak Liv tyler ini hihihihihi! nih si kunyuk satu juga isi nya "pacaran" mulu sekrg .. suara gw aja dah lupa dia !( dendam pokoknya gw ) ! tapi ga papa lah ... biasa cewe !kalo lagi suka ma sms 6585323265 X sehari giliran dah eneg tsss boro boro sms ! e-mail aja males balesin ... gituuuu tuuuuuu ( cewe ma bangsat yee M ) huueeuheueu
buat si P di J town ! Fcuk ( French Connection UK) singkatan nya baru tau dua minggu lalu di kasih tau si L neh , ga gaul dah gw ! ! nih kalo kirim sms isi nya Ayat2 bible kayak gw dah mo mati aje ! conq dari Israel bawa paan buat gw ! eh ga bisa bhs indo deng ya elu lupa gw bahasa hmm paan sih race elo hehe muka midlle east banget dah kayak bintang pilm india loeeee !! tinggal di perth , canada , sekrg di jkt ! tssssss body beyonce ... muka benyamin loeeee becanda conq ga lagi pms kan ye elo
si D bu Dosen fashion .. musim paan th depan neh mesti gimana style gw ??? hueeksss
wey benconq ! kapan punya anak loe ! buruan ! keburu kering tuh rahim ntar di tunda2 mulu .... tapi ga papa deng suami elo lebih muda getuh ! dasar pedofil loe Din !
si Y screw him ... find another man ! gw bikinin pesta pernikahan dah kalo loe nemu cowo baru , ntar kalo gw lagi menang lotere
C di LA , Cell ! kapan anak ke 3 nya lahir ? produktif banget sih eloe ! salam buat Keke
O di Bdg indonesia .... Bu dosen yg berambut a la dragon balls .. kapan tuh buku terbit nye ? dah lulus uji kok ... tuh cover nya si L ajeeee hahaha kan lagi di indo ! cocok dia buat cover !
P di NY si Ratu dangdut yg kalo dandan dari kaos kaki sampai kutang mesti pake merk .... huehueheuhe kayak di bayar aje luh ama merk !
kapan ke UK lage luh th depan bulan paan ? kalo nelpon rada malam ga papa pat! jgn pagi ! .. taeee dah lagi clubbing jam 2 malem nelpon bikin empet aje loe ! th depan gw banyak pergi Pat ....paling ketemu bentar aja ..
Selamat Natal & tahun baru ye buat kalian semua ... W met lebaran dah buat th depan ! hehehe
daaaaghhh
kaga usah pada comment yak kalo baca ini postingan ! gw delete in semua kalo comment yg tidak enak di liat oleh mata gw ! hihihihi
c yaaa ... nonton lost in translation ... bill murray ... bagus gak ye ????
Monday, December 06, 2004
It started off so well
They said we made a perfect pair
I clothed myself in your glory and your love
How I loved you
How I cried...
The years of care and loyalty
Were nothing but a sham it seems
The years belie we lived a lie
I love u till die .... ( bulss offcourse )
cant face this life alone
I m naked and I m far from home
The slate will soon be clean
I ll erase the memories
To start again with somebody new
Was it all wasted
All that love? ...
I hang my head and I advertise
A soul for sale or rent
I have no heart
I m cold inside
I have no real intent
They said we made a perfect pair
I clothed myself in your glory and your love
How I loved you
How I cried...
The years of care and loyalty
Were nothing but a sham it seems
The years belie we lived a lie
I love u till die .... ( bulss offcourse )
cant face this life alone
I m naked and I m far from home
The slate will soon be clean
I ll erase the memories
To start again with somebody new
Was it all wasted
All that love? ...
I hang my head and I advertise
A soul for sale or rent
I have no heart
I m cold inside
I have no real intent
HEART doesn t know what doubt is, heart doesn t know what BELIEVE is- heart simply knows trust. Heart is like a small child; the small child clings to the father s hand, and wherever the father is going the child is going, neither trusting nor doubting. The child is undivided. Doubt is half, belief is half. A child is still total.W h o l e .
when you love a person ,all fear disappears.
And when you are afraid ,all love disappears.
'TRUTH is simple.
Very simple-so simple that a child can understand it.
In fact, so simple that only a child can understand it.
Unless you become a child again you will not be able to understand it.
It is an experience, not speculation
when you love a person ,all fear disappears.
And when you are afraid ,all love disappears.
'TRUTH is simple.
Very simple-so simple that a child can understand it.
In fact, so simple that only a child can understand it.
Unless you become a child again you will not be able to understand it.
It is an experience, not speculation
Sunday, December 05, 2004
Qui Quoi
Il y a longtemps que tu n existes pas
Visage quelquefois celebre et suffisant
Comment je t aime Je ne sais Depuis longtemps
Je t`aime avec indifference Je t aime a haine
Par omission par murmure par lachete
Avec obstination Contre toute vraisemblance
Je t`aime en te perdant pour perdre
Ce moi qui refuse d`tre des notres entraine
De poupe ,ce balcon chantourne sur le sel
Ex-qui de dos traine entre deux eaux
Maintenant quoi
Bouche punie
Bouche punie cœur arpentant l orbite
Une question a tout frayant en vain le tiers
ps : sorry this HTML shit can`t use the letter sign for french language ( e.d aphostrops etc )
nobody cares and nobody reads ! :)
toi t ageule ! putain de merde !
Il y a longtemps que tu n existes pas
Visage quelquefois celebre et suffisant
Comment je t aime Je ne sais Depuis longtemps
Je t`aime avec indifference Je t aime a haine
Par omission par murmure par lachete
Avec obstination Contre toute vraisemblance
Je t`aime en te perdant pour perdre
Ce moi qui refuse d`tre des notres entraine
De poupe ,ce balcon chantourne sur le sel
Ex-qui de dos traine entre deux eaux
Maintenant quoi
Bouche punie
Bouche punie cœur arpentant l orbite
Une question a tout frayant en vain le tiers
ps : sorry this HTML shit can`t use the letter sign for french language ( e.d aphostrops etc )
nobody cares and nobody reads ! :)
toi t ageule ! putain de merde !
Saturday, December 04, 2004
Well the answer is always the same,won't you please just let it be.
Cause I've been there and all I can say, is that it slips away from me.
With the memory of yesterday's grace, she spins away from me,
So I can go on.
As cold as the void of the night, the dark surrounding me.
She leaves me there every time, as alone as I can be.
And I drift with the thought of her eyes, she's all that I can see,
But I will go on.
As heartless and cruel as can be, she moves away from me.
Still I need to be hers every time, with all that I can be.
As she calls in the deep of the night, she takes all I've got from me.
So I can go on.
She rides with the god's of the night, she rules the tides in me.
She crushes the waves with her sigh, and she.....oh lord.....she becomes a part of me.
But her care is a sharp as a knife, I'll say, for how can she step away from me.
How can you just walk away from me?
Every cold night, every whisper, every silent scream, and you never listen, and you say what?.....It's alright, well it's not allright, no, no.
Every last time, every shiver, every dirty game, well it's just isn't right, it just isn't right.
She wakes at the dawn of the day, and takes my heart from me.
Leaves me with nothing to say, nothing left for me.
But the fever of final goodbyes, she spins away from me.
So I can go on.......
Cause I've been there and all I can say, is that it slips away from me.
With the memory of yesterday's grace, she spins away from me,
So I can go on.
As cold as the void of the night, the dark surrounding me.
She leaves me there every time, as alone as I can be.
And I drift with the thought of her eyes, she's all that I can see,
But I will go on.
As heartless and cruel as can be, she moves away from me.
Still I need to be hers every time, with all that I can be.
As she calls in the deep of the night, she takes all I've got from me.
So I can go on.
She rides with the god's of the night, she rules the tides in me.
She crushes the waves with her sigh, and she.....oh lord.....she becomes a part of me.
But her care is a sharp as a knife, I'll say, for how can she step away from me.
How can you just walk away from me?
Every cold night, every whisper, every silent scream, and you never listen, and you say what?.....It's alright, well it's not allright, no, no.
Every last time, every shiver, every dirty game, well it's just isn't right, it just isn't right.
She wakes at the dawn of the day, and takes my heart from me.
Leaves me with nothing to say, nothing left for me.
But the fever of final goodbyes, she spins away from me.
So I can go on.......
Thursday, December 02, 2004
Something has left you,
but it is good that it has left.
The last part of the ego has left.
You feel empty, mm? because you had become accustomed to a certain identity. You had become certain of living with somebody inside you. Now that somebody is not there. Now the house is empty, utterly empty. In the beginning it will feel kind of sad, kind of lonely. And yes, you will feel vulnerable and not in a loving way, because all the love that you have known before was love through the ego. Now, before another kind of love starts flowing you will feel that all flow has stopped; hence the hardness. That softness was not a true softness, but the ego pretends to be polite, soft. That is the polished ego. That's what a cultured man is. That is the only difference between the uncultured and the cultured: the uncultured has a gross ego and cultured has a very polished, polite, humble ego; he looks almost egoless. He has become his pretension. That softness is a pretension but one can become absolutely one with it.
Now the ego has gone, with it the softness has gone. You will find a natural hardness in you. This is your reality. It is just as if you painted your face with powder and you had made it beautiful and then it rained and all the powder went down the drain. Suddenly you find your real face. You had forgotten about it. Those flowers that you have arranged on the rock of your ego have disappeared; now the rock is left.... You will feel a little hard and at the same time vulnerable, at the same time unloving, empty. This is what christian mystics have called the 'dark night of the soul.' Before the morn, before the dawn, everybody has to pass through it. One has to be utterly empty, only then can one be full. There is no other way to fullness.
So these days will be a little difficult, but welcome them. They are part of growth, of immensely valuable growth. But you cannot see ahead. And I understand that -- you can see only that which was and is no more. You cannot see that which is going to be, which is already on the way, which may have already entered you. But before you can recognise it a little time will pass, because one has to learn a new grammar, an altogether new language to understand it, to conceive of it, to conceptualise it. One has to create a new kind of intellect. A new kind of intelligence has to arise and start functioning; only then can you see what is happening. But it is good.
thx M
but it is good that it has left.
The last part of the ego has left.
You feel empty, mm? because you had become accustomed to a certain identity. You had become certain of living with somebody inside you. Now that somebody is not there. Now the house is empty, utterly empty. In the beginning it will feel kind of sad, kind of lonely. And yes, you will feel vulnerable and not in a loving way, because all the love that you have known before was love through the ego. Now, before another kind of love starts flowing you will feel that all flow has stopped; hence the hardness. That softness was not a true softness, but the ego pretends to be polite, soft. That is the polished ego. That's what a cultured man is. That is the only difference between the uncultured and the cultured: the uncultured has a gross ego and cultured has a very polished, polite, humble ego; he looks almost egoless. He has become his pretension. That softness is a pretension but one can become absolutely one with it.
Now the ego has gone, with it the softness has gone. You will find a natural hardness in you. This is your reality. It is just as if you painted your face with powder and you had made it beautiful and then it rained and all the powder went down the drain. Suddenly you find your real face. You had forgotten about it. Those flowers that you have arranged on the rock of your ego have disappeared; now the rock is left.... You will feel a little hard and at the same time vulnerable, at the same time unloving, empty. This is what christian mystics have called the 'dark night of the soul.' Before the morn, before the dawn, everybody has to pass through it. One has to be utterly empty, only then can one be full. There is no other way to fullness.
So these days will be a little difficult, but welcome them. They are part of growth, of immensely valuable growth. But you cannot see ahead. And I understand that -- you can see only that which was and is no more. You cannot see that which is going to be, which is already on the way, which may have already entered you. But before you can recognise it a little time will pass, because one has to learn a new grammar, an altogether new language to understand it, to conceive of it, to conceptualise it. One has to create a new kind of intellect. A new kind of intelligence has to arise and start functioning; only then can you see what is happening. But it is good.
thx M
new relationship to Christ...
and it's wonderful, full of life.
That's true. That's good christians have destroyed all bridges towards Christ. Christ needs a new interpretation, a new approach, a new breakthrough. Christ needs people now who are not christians; only they can relate with him.
If you are a christian you cannot relate with Christ. You are full of rubbish -- theology, doctrine, scripture One has to be unburdened of all that. And that is the case with Buddha too: if you are a buddhist you cannot relate with Buddha either. You have to be a non-buddhist to relate to Buddha. Because these people are not philosophers -- they have not propounded philosophies, they are not theoretical. You have to fall in love with them. You cannot be indoctrinated, because all indoctrination kills love, all logic is against love.
So if a person comes to me who really wants to be in tune with Christ, I am the door! And if somebody comes to relate to Buddha through me, I am the door. Because it is all the same! The taste of enlightenment is the same. These are only differences of name: Buddha, Krishna, Christ, Mahavira. These are only differences of name, differences of form and body, time, language, but the innermost quality is the same light.
You have come at the right time -- something is going to happen
and it's wonderful, full of life.
That's true. That's good christians have destroyed all bridges towards Christ. Christ needs a new interpretation, a new approach, a new breakthrough. Christ needs people now who are not christians; only they can relate with him.
If you are a christian you cannot relate with Christ. You are full of rubbish -- theology, doctrine, scripture One has to be unburdened of all that. And that is the case with Buddha too: if you are a buddhist you cannot relate with Buddha either. You have to be a non-buddhist to relate to Buddha. Because these people are not philosophers -- they have not propounded philosophies, they are not theoretical. You have to fall in love with them. You cannot be indoctrinated, because all indoctrination kills love, all logic is against love.
So if a person comes to me who really wants to be in tune with Christ, I am the door! And if somebody comes to relate to Buddha through me, I am the door. Because it is all the same! The taste of enlightenment is the same. These are only differences of name: Buddha, Krishna, Christ, Mahavira. These are only differences of name, differences of form and body, time, language, but the innermost quality is the same light.
You have come at the right time -- something is going to happen
....But I know how it is when I sing with my heart... but I know also how I sing when I'm cool.
You have to sing both ways, because you cannot be hot every time. If you are hot, your heart will be burned. The fuse will go and even will not be able to fix it! It is natural. Sometimes sing perfectly cool and sometimes perfectly hot. Sometimes the passion is there and sometimes it is not. And one has to understand these rhythms. When it is there, enjoy that; when it is not there, enJoy singing, enjoy music. When it is there, forget about music and singing and enjoy the content. And both are good, all is good.
Those cool moments have their own significance. Just think of two lovers for twenty-four hours in love: soon they will be tired of each other, deadly tired. They will become so bored with that love. It will be too sweet, it will create a kind of diabetes. So there are gaps. For a few moments you feel great love and then it disappears. The gap creates appetite and suddenly you are there again; all that joy is back and the honeymoon starts again.
Each love affair goes through a thousand-and-one honeymoons and a thousand-and-one divorces... and they happen every day! In the morning it was all flowing, by the evening it is not flowing at all. But slowly, slowly, one understands that these are the moods, the climates that go on changing. One has to learn to enjoy cloudy weather, sunny weather, all kinds of weather.
Love is not a constant phenomenon. If it is constant you will forget about it. One can only perceive things which are not constant, which go on changing. If something is absolutely constant it will become so obvious that you will stop looking at it. You will forget all about it. Change keeps you aware of it. Perception needs a rush of energy.
It is perfectly good... you need not be worried about it. If some day it is cool, enjoy the coolness of it, and if some day it is very passionate, enjoy the passion of it. When you have started enjoying both you are on the right track. Don't choose a particular kind of weather. Don't say 'I will enjoy only when it is sunny or only when it is cloudy.' Then you will suffer much. Just say 'I will enjoy. When there are clouds I will enjoy the clouds and when it is raining I will enjoy the rains.' This is totality....
Everything is perfectly good. And when does your music group start?... Make it absolutely new. And give it a new pattern, a new structure whatsoever you feel,
but make it alive!
You have to sing both ways, because you cannot be hot every time. If you are hot, your heart will be burned. The fuse will go and even will not be able to fix it! It is natural. Sometimes sing perfectly cool and sometimes perfectly hot. Sometimes the passion is there and sometimes it is not. And one has to understand these rhythms. When it is there, enjoy that; when it is not there, enJoy singing, enjoy music. When it is there, forget about music and singing and enjoy the content. And both are good, all is good.
Those cool moments have their own significance. Just think of two lovers for twenty-four hours in love: soon they will be tired of each other, deadly tired. They will become so bored with that love. It will be too sweet, it will create a kind of diabetes. So there are gaps. For a few moments you feel great love and then it disappears. The gap creates appetite and suddenly you are there again; all that joy is back and the honeymoon starts again.
Each love affair goes through a thousand-and-one honeymoons and a thousand-and-one divorces... and they happen every day! In the morning it was all flowing, by the evening it is not flowing at all. But slowly, slowly, one understands that these are the moods, the climates that go on changing. One has to learn to enjoy cloudy weather, sunny weather, all kinds of weather.
Love is not a constant phenomenon. If it is constant you will forget about it. One can only perceive things which are not constant, which go on changing. If something is absolutely constant it will become so obvious that you will stop looking at it. You will forget all about it. Change keeps you aware of it. Perception needs a rush of energy.
It is perfectly good... you need not be worried about it. If some day it is cool, enjoy the coolness of it, and if some day it is very passionate, enjoy the passion of it. When you have started enjoying both you are on the right track. Don't choose a particular kind of weather. Don't say 'I will enjoy only when it is sunny or only when it is cloudy.' Then you will suffer much. Just say 'I will enjoy. When there are clouds I will enjoy the clouds and when it is raining I will enjoy the rains.' This is totality....
Everything is perfectly good. And when does your music group start?... Make it absolutely new. And give it a new pattern, a new structure whatsoever you feel,
but make it alive!
Monday, November 29, 2004
Is it far from the place
From the last time
I saw your face
Is it far from the time
From the last time when you were mine
Do you remember the lights in the sky
We hear the voices crying through the night
Get outta my head
Well if you catch me sheddin tears,
mama don't ya worry
The pain's allright,
it's the love that's deadly
I'm gonna be well safe, it's just a hard memory
Now everybody's chattin bout dem fish inna de sea
Say I can't take to wait,
I think I lost my bait
Who would've thought
I'd believe in fate
One last grasp while I'm sinkin fast
before it's too late
Is it colder where you are
Walk around with your tired heart
Is it closer than it seems
When happiness is just a part of your dreams
Don't wanna remember the love that I knew
Don't wanna remeber what I fell into
GET outta MY HEAD !!!!!
From the last time
I saw your face
Is it far from the time
From the last time when you were mine
Do you remember the lights in the sky
We hear the voices crying through the night
Get outta my head
Well if you catch me sheddin tears,
mama don't ya worry
The pain's allright,
it's the love that's deadly
I'm gonna be well safe, it's just a hard memory
Now everybody's chattin bout dem fish inna de sea
Say I can't take to wait,
I think I lost my bait
Who would've thought
I'd believe in fate
One last grasp while I'm sinkin fast
before it's too late
Is it colder where you are
Walk around with your tired heart
Is it closer than it seems
When happiness is just a part of your dreams
Don't wanna remember the love that I knew
Don't wanna remeber what I fell into
GET outta MY HEAD !!!!!
Sunday, November 28, 2004
Saturday, November 27, 2004
W a y o u t
There's nothing we can do
To make the feeling of This bitter life go away
There's nothing we can say
To make the hunger for a better life go away
Just waiting for a chance
to run away some how and never look back
Do you remember you were young and so naive
nothing harm and everything was like a dream
Just remember you will find out how it feels
To have a secret way out
nothings been the same cause all the memorys
of the thoughts we shared to remain
Sunday, November 21, 2004
je t`aime pour toujours
You set my soul at ease Chased darkness out of view Left your desperate spell on me Say you feel it to I know you do
I've got so much more to give
This can't die, I yearn to live Pour yourself all over me And I'll cherish every drop here on my knees
I wanna love you forever And this is all I'm asking of you 10,000 lifetimes together Is that so much for you to do?
Cuz from the moment that I saw your face And felt the fire in your sweet embrace
I swear I knew.
I'm gonna love you forever
My mind fails to understand What my heart tells me to do And I'd give up all I have just to be with you and that would do I've always been taught to win And I never thought I'd fall Be at the mercy of a man I've never been Now I only want to be right where you are.
In my life I've learned that heaven never waits no Lets take this now before it's gone like yesterday Cuz when I'm with you there's nowhere else That I would ever wanna be no I'm breathing for the next second I can feel you Loving me ... I'm gonna love
I've got so much more to give
This can't die, I yearn to live Pour yourself all over me And I'll cherish every drop here on my knees
I wanna love you forever And this is all I'm asking of you 10,000 lifetimes together Is that so much for you to do?
Cuz from the moment that I saw your face And felt the fire in your sweet embrace
I swear I knew.
I'm gonna love you forever
My mind fails to understand What my heart tells me to do And I'd give up all I have just to be with you and that would do I've always been taught to win And I never thought I'd fall Be at the mercy of a man I've never been Now I only want to be right where you are.
In my life I've learned that heaven never waits no Lets take this now before it's gone like yesterday Cuz when I'm with you there's nowhere else That I would ever wanna be no I'm breathing for the next second I can feel you Loving me ... I'm gonna love
dom blondje vid clips ;))
Monday, November 08, 2004
Black !
New lay out .... tsssss ... black editions !
new song from THC ( dunno who!?! ... one of Dutch (C)-rap group) .... lekkerrrre beats joh !!
new song from THC ( dunno who!?! ... one of Dutch (C)-rap group) .... lekkerrrre beats joh !!
Friday, November 05, 2004
shut da f*ck up ! or die !
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Tot hier !!!
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
R I P Theo Van Gogh
Met de moord op Pim Fortuyn heeft Nederland haar onschuld verloren, met de moord op Theo van Gogh haar vertrouwen.Kerwin Duinmeijer, Daniël van Cottem, Joes Kloppenburg, Meindert Tjoelker , Rene Steegmans, Pim Fortuyn, kogelbrieven voor Advocaat, Hans van Wierden, ex-vriend steekt vriendin neer, poederbrieven, 9/11, oorlog in Irak, ex-vriend vermoordt vriendin en steekt lijk in de brand, onthoofdings filmpjes op Internet, haat spreekkoren tijdens voetbalwedstrijden, Theo van Gogh... Houdt deze lijst nooit op? Ik vind het eng. Toen het nieuws mij vanochtend bereikte, was het eerste wat door mijn gedachten flitste: "Wedden dat de dader een kutmoslim is!" Ik schrok van mezelf. Was ik nu zelf ook tot dit niveau gedaald?Ik schrok van de vele racistische en extremistische reacties. Op diverse Marokkaans forums waarin werd gejuicht om het feit “Een varken was afgeslacht”. Ook reacties van onze eigen lezers “Gaskamers moeten weer in ere worden hersteld. Hitler is een held”. Ik begrijp dat mensen verontwaardigd zijn. Woedend zijn. Verdrietig zijn. De rede was af en toe echter ver te zoeken.Onze samenleving wordt steeds harder en grimmiger. De digitalisering helpt hier een aardig handje aan mee. De informatie over de moord op Theo van Gogh bereikte ons snel via diverse media. En iedereen heeft tegenwoordig de gelegenheid om ongenuanceerd zijn mening te spuien. Een ideale situatie om elkaar op te hitsen en realiteit uit het oog te verliezen.In de Frans Polynesië ligt een klein eiland Micronesië. Er gebeurt nooit een fuck. Zo’n beetje iedereen is familie van elkaar. Stelen, mishandeling, verkrachting, moord zijn misdaden die op dat eiland niet voorkomen. Een tiental jaren terug ontstond daar een interessant fenomeen. Een jongeling pleegde zelfmoord. De kranten besteden er aandacht aan. En al snel waren er meerdere personen die zelfmoord pleegde. Iedere keer dat een krant aandacht aan zo’n zaak besteedde nam het aantal zelfmoorden toe. Er ontstond als het ware een hype.Volgens mij zitten we nu ook in een soort van hype. Zinloos geweld, racisme en extremisme krijgen veel aandacht. En iedereen reageert hier op. Links, rechts, tussen in. Van afschuw, naar verontwaardiging, naar woede. Hirschi Ali en Geert Wilders zijn volgens mij hun leven niet meer zeker. Ik hoop dat we allen in staat zijn om deze ellende achter ons te laten en terugvallen op onze sterkste eigenschap: Hollandse nuchterheid.Zojuist met de tranen in mijn ogen naar de uitzending op teevee gekeken. Zoveel mensen op de been die met veel lawaai uitdrukking gaven aan hun. Kippenvel kreeg ik toen deze massa tijdens de twee minuten durende stilte het v-gebaar maakten. Meer dan indrukwekkend. Een spandoek trok mijn aandacht gedurende deze ceremonie. Op het doek stond de volgende tekst: "He extremist, ik zwijg je dood."
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
Monday, November 01, 2004
tilt ya head back
i hear the oldskool funk rythm ( james brown, prince sounds) ... in this (c)rap music
Sunday, October 31, 2004
Ketchup song
Lola, Lucia and Pilar and they are Tomate's daughters. These three young ladies are the new teen sensation from Spain which at only one week of their first single release "The Ketchup Song (Hey Hah) ", have entered directly to #1 in the Supersales chart in their native country. They have also held the #1 spot in the most important radio charts for two consecutive weeks. There is no doubt that "Las Ketchup" are conquering everyone. Their contagious tune "The Ketchup Song (Hey Hah) " is quickly becoming the song of the moment. Their catchy chorus will not go unnoticed ... asereje, ja deje tejebe tude jebere seiunouba majabi an de bugui an de buididipi!! Yes! They have their own language, but before you know it the whole world will be singing their tune.
The Last Ketchup
Friday, October 29, 2004
Thursday, October 28, 2004
C O N T R O L
You need to feel me
I can't control you
You're not the one for me, noI can't control you
You can't control me
I need to feel you
so why's there even you and me?
I love the way you rake my skin
I feel the hate you place inside
love the way you look at me I love the way you look at me
I feel the pain you place inside
you lock me up inside your dirty cage
well I'm alone inside my mind
I'd like to teach you all the rules
I'd get to see them set in stone
I like it when you chain me to the bed
but then your secrets never shone
I need to feel you
I love the way you smack my ass
-control-
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
Miss you love
Silverchair
Millionaire say got a big shot deal
And thrown it all away
But but i'm not too sure
how I'm supposed to feel
Or what I'm supposed to say
But I'm not not sure
Not too sure
how it feelsTo handle every day
And I miss you love
Make room for the preyCause
I'm coming in with what I wanna say
But it's gonna hurt
And I love the pain
ble ble bleeee ...... all about craps ... hmm nice song
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
g o o d f *c k e r ?????
Your heart is not open so I must goThe spell has been broken?
I loved you so
Freedom comes when you learn to let go
Creation comes when you learn to say no
Walk awayYou were my lesson
I had to learn
I was your fortress you had to burn
Pain is a warning that something's wrong
I pray to god that it won't be long
bla blah blaaaah .
...... bullshit .....
F A L L E N
F a l l e n
Heaven bent to take my hand
and lead through the fire.
Lead a long awaited answer to a long and painful fight. Truth be told, I've tried my best but somewhere along the way, I got caught up in all there was to offer and the cost was so much more than I could bare.Though I've tried, I've fallen.
I have sunk so low.Out of the best,the better I should know.
So don't come 'round hereand tell me I told you so.
Your the king of good intents,love was raw and young.
We believed that we could change ourselves and the past could be undone.
But we carry on our back the burden that time always reaveals.
In the lonely light of morning,in the one that would know heal,is the bitter taste of losing everything that I've held dear so..Though I've tried, I've fallen I have sunk so low. Out of the best,the better I should know.So don't come 'round here,and tell me that I told you so.Heaven bent to take my hand,Nowhere left to turnlost in those our thoughtful friends,to everyone I know.Oh, they turn their head embaressed pretend that they don't see.that there's one big step and slip before you know it and there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed.
Though I've tried, I've fallen.I have sunk so low.Out of the best, better I should know.
But don't come 'round hereand tell me that I told you so.
Can`t get u off of my mind
L.Kravitz
Life is just a lonely highway
Im out here on the open road
Im old enough to see behind me
But young enough to feel my soul
I dont wanna lose you baby
And I dont wanna be alone
Dont wanna live my days without you
But for now Ive got to be without you
I’ve got a pocket full of money
And pocket full of keys that have no bounds
But then I think of lovin’
And I just can’t get you off of my mind
Babe can’t you see
That this is killing me
I don’t want to push you baby
And I don’t want you to be told
It’s just that I can’t breathe without you
Feel like I’m gonna lose control
I’ve got a pocket full of money oh yes I do
And a pocket full of keys that have no bounds
But when it comes to lovin’
I just can’t get you off of my mind, yeaaah
Am I a fool to think that there’s a little hope
Yeah yeahhhhhheee yeah
Tell me baby, yeah
What are the rules the reasons and the do’s and don’ts
Yeah yeahhhhhheee yeah
Tell me baby tell me baby, yeah
What do you feel inside?
I’ve got a pocket full of money
And a pocket full of keys that have no bounds
Oh yeah
But when it comes down to lovin’
I just can’t get you off of my mind, yeah
Im out here on the open road
Im old enough to see behind me
But young enough to feel my soul
I dont wanna lose you baby
And I dont wanna be alone
Dont wanna live my days without you
But for now Ive got to be without you
I’ve got a pocket full of money
And pocket full of keys that have no bounds
But then I think of lovin’
And I just can’t get you off of my mind
Babe can’t you see
That this is killing me
I don’t want to push you baby
And I don’t want you to be told
It’s just that I can’t breathe without you
Feel like I’m gonna lose control
I’ve got a pocket full of money oh yes I do
And a pocket full of keys that have no bounds
But when it comes to lovin’
I just can’t get you off of my mind, yeaaah
Am I a fool to think that there’s a little hope
Yeah yeahhhhhheee yeah
Tell me baby, yeah
What are the rules the reasons and the do’s and don’ts
Yeah yeahhhhhheee yeah
Tell me baby tell me baby, yeah
What do you feel inside?
I’ve got a pocket full of money
And a pocket full of keys that have no bounds
Oh yeah
But when it comes down to lovin’
I just can’t get you off of my mind, yeah
everybody`s fool
Perfect by nature
Icons of self indulgence
Just what we all need More lies about a world that Never was and never will be
Have you no shame, don't you see me?
You know you've got everybody fooled
Look here she comes now
Bow down and stare in wonder Oh, how we love you Too bad we didn't know she Never was and never will be You don't know how you've betrayed me And somehow you've got everybody fooled
Never was and never will be You don't know how you've betrayed me And somehow you've got everybody fooled Never was and never will be You're not real and you can't save me And somehow now you're everybody's fool
Monday, October 25, 2004
Yeah, u're loved... hahaha
she will be loved, he will be loved, I will be loved, u will be loved... everyone will be loved... the whole friggin' world will be loved.. yeah!
She will be loved - Maroon 5
"She Will Be Loved"
Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
[in the background]
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Yeah
[softly]
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Try so hard to say goodbye
Seether feat Amy Lee "Broken"
B r o k e n
I wanted you to know I love the way you laughI wanna hold you high and steal your pain awayI keep your photograph; I know it serves me wellI wanna hold you high and steal your pain‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesomeAnd I don’t feel right when you’re gone awayYou've gone away, you don't feel me anymoreThe worst is over now and we can breathe againI wanna hold you high, you steal my pain awayThere’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fightI wanna hold you high and steal your pain‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open And I don’t feel like I am strong enough‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesomeAnd I don’t feel right when you’re gone away‘Cause I’m broken when I’m openAnd I don’t feel like I am strong enough‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesomeAnd I don’t feel right when you’re gone away‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesomeAnd I don’t feel right when you’re goneYou've gone away, you don't feel me anymore
lagu enak ni ... USHER
Confessions Part II"
Watch this...
[Chorus:]
These are my confessions
Just when I thought I said all I can say
My chick on the side said she got one on the way
These are my confessions
Man I'm thrown and I dont know what to do
I guess I gotta give part 2 of my confessions
If I'm gonna tell it then I gotta tell it all
Damn near cried when I got that phone call
I'm so throwed and I don't know what to do
But to give you part 2 of my confessions
[Verse 1]
Now this gon' be the hardest thing I think I ever had to do
Got me talkin' to myself askin' how I'm gon' tell you
'bout that chick on part 1 I told ya'll I was creepin' with, sleepin' with
Said she's 3 months pregnant and she's keepin' it
The first thing that came to mind was you
Second thing was how do I know if it's mine and is it true
Third thing was me wishin' that I never did what I did
How I ain't ready for no kid and bye bye to our relationship
[Chorus]
[Verse 2]
Sittin here stuck on stupid, tryna figure out
When, what, and how I'mma let this come out of my mouth
Said it ain't gon' be easy
But I need to stop thinkin', contemplatin'
Be a man and get it over with (over with)
I'm ridin' in my whip
Racin' to her place
Talkin' to myself
Preparin' to tell her to her face
She open up the door and didn't want to come near me
I said "one second baby please hear me"
[Chorus]
[Breakdown]
This by far is the hardest thing I think I've ever had to do
To tell you, the woman I love
That I'm having a baby by a woman that I barely even know
I hope you can accept the fact that I'm man enough to tell you this
And hopefully you'll give me another chance
This ain't about my career
This ain't about my life
It's about us
Please
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